I don't go to AA. My help from my psychiatrist and husband is working for me at this point. When I looked at the 12 steps I initially recoiled and thought that's crazy religious bs but when you take the God part out, it makes sense. An article by atheist guide to AA put it into perspective for me.
For the non religous those twelve steps on the wall and in the book represent four things in essence:
A recognition that you haven’t been able get loaded in anything approaching moderation and without consistently creating havoc.
A surrender to the fact that this is a kind of law of nature for you, and that fighting it has been insane.
A willingness to let reality be the guide of your actions henceforth in this and in everything else.
A commitment to try and stop hurting yourself or others, and to help where you can.
This helped and resonated with me completely. The article was written by Frank. M