bratty.....I was where you are now just 10 days ago. Tomorrow is #11 for me sober.
I was lucky, I work from home but I'd start drinking earlier and earlier every day.......used to be 6:00, then 5:00, then 4:00, you get it. I could also type and talk without anyone recognizing I was tipsy.
But I knew it.
Wasn't until I fell out of my desk chair one night, ran over my dog's foot with the chair, heard him cry out and I just started crying. I hurt him. I was so out of control. I'm also lucky I didn't break my hip in the process. I still have a horrible bruise where I fell on the metal chair wheel when I hit the ground
You can do this! I know you can b/c I did. Sober is a little scary at first, but now I find I sing around the house, play with my dogs, talk to my husband, go for rides to see the Christmas lights and wake up looking forward to the sunshine.
I'll say a prayer for you for strength and comittment. Good luck and keep reading and posting. ****{hug}}}