Man, I been watching a few of your threads / post, and I would like to wish you the best of luck. As you said... go in there sober and get help for what you need. Reading your post I feel a-lot like you do in many ways... mainly neglected.... because I once decided / found out that picking up the bottle could help for many problems. There is hope though man, and I wish you the best of luck in finding it. Be honest with your docs, and if you have to mention alcohol to them, at-least let them know that it is a problem you are working on, and even mention your AA attempts, rehab attempts, and so on... maybe they can see that isn't where your problems come from.. but maybe deeper problems inside. (I feel for you)