Originally Posted by
helltoraise 
Sassydog-how do you get to the point where you believe it is a blessing that he left? I am stuck in how I wasn't good enough or exciting enough for him to want to stick around. I can't compete with his dreams of what Portland will be like nor the excitement of courting/chasing new women. I'm just me and it feels like that wasn't enough for him.
helltoraise,
You were TOO much for him. You expected a real relationship, and he cannot provide that because he is drunk.
He could not possibly know how good you are, or what an exciting package you are because he is drunk.
Just because he can look for and maybe find another person to hang out with while drinking
does not diminish you in any way!
You are enough just as you are!
Beth
PS Don't you have some helltoraise somewhere? Love that name. I hope it means something wild and free for you.