I am starting to realize just how miserable my life was for nearly 3 decades. I have finally accepted to myself that I lived with a man who continually lived on the 'fringes' of our relationship and who did not waste a second running to be with somebody else once I left ( I don't think he can stand being alone at the moment) .Anyway in addition to attending alanon i also have to attend a weekly group for abused women - which has also really opened my eyes. I did not realize how many put-downs I constantly had to put up with - to be honest sometimes I wonder how I'm still standing. But here is my question - when we know how bad and truly rotten they are - why does it still hurt so much to see them with someone else? And does that ever change?
