I also experienced a reversal of intent. My decision was after many years of not drinking, but nonetheless, I chose to drink again. My binge lasted 7 years and it's an understatement to say I was "all beast". In the end, I had a little talk with myself... "Well, soberlicious, it's obvious that this can happen, so what are you going to do about it in the future? What exactly is your plan of action to make sure you don't do this again?" ...because I can ensure that. I can make sure I never put alcohol in my body again. I can and so can you. What's your plan, Non?