what do i do?
i found this web site back in august, it helped me sooo much for about two weeks, i didn't come back. i fell.. now i'm at work, with a bottle of wine hidden from view. i realize this is wrong, and i know i'm the only one who can stop drinking, but it is so hard. i blame everyone around me for my addiction, and i'm so tired of it. i have tried to isolate myself from everyone, so i don't have to deal with it, or have to hear about it. i want to quit but it is so hard, and i'm scared. i'm 34, i've been drinking for 15 years.. hard drinking. i tell my husband, that it's because we don't go out, we don't do anything, we're just sticks in the mud.. blah blah blah.. and how is this??? i'm typing this like everything is normal, i can even type drunk. this is so not normal. i guess i just needed to vent, because no one close to me knows this crazy cycle, and i just need to be reminded i'm not alone.