Originally Posted by
heathersweeds 
I can really identify. I remeber not wanting to be drunk, but not wanting to be sober. What a weird feeling. I had to start working through the pain, moving forward. Look but don't stare is what my sponcor says. I agree with the other posters, maybe find a program that interests you and start slowly. And remember, small doses, this is a journey. It took us years to get where we are. Lots of luck
awesome reminder for me. thanks!! if i stare to long, i get all buggered up. but when i say,"yup, i was quite a tornado. thank God im not that man any more" i get back to serenity.
working
through the pain...what a concept! all i did when drinkin was try and go around it.kept ending up back in the same spot: gloom,dispair, and misery. then i started working
through it!1 wow!! how amazing!!
yeah...slow progress. pretty hard for an impatient perfectionist, but it really is th ebest way for me.
thanks again. i need to remember to not stare and keep movin forward.