I don't have kids, but I have fur kids which mean as much to me... I had a slip after 14 months of sobriety (alot of people could just call it a night out) After all this time, I have guilt... who wouldn't. I went through alot of shiz, including a month in hospital with alcoholic hepatitis and malnutritian, was convinced I had cirrhosis... turns out my liver is healthy again.... I think of all the things I could have bought.... blah blah.... It's how you are doing NOW is the main thing .... are you after tough love or are you happy on your pity pot lol