Hi Fantail, thank you. I am using this site as an alternative to meetings right now and it has helped. The hardest part of my day is from 2pm- 6pm. Since I lost my job it has been really hard. I would start drinking around 2 if I had the day off, often I would wake up and go grab a beer. I'm happy that is not happening now. It is crazy how I could go from 12 beers a day to 0. I'm happier when I'm not drinking, especially when I can remember everything! I would take a lot of Xanax and drink. I hate to say this but 2 of my previous doctors no longer are practicing due to their shady behavior. I was bummed out because they prescribed my Xanax, and I would have to go find another doctor. When it happened the second time I thought I need to get off this stuff. I'm so glad I did. Sorry, that was a side note... But I am so happy that I could not get anymore. I was ruining my life with it.