Eve - you can definitely do this. I'm glad you've reached out - SR helped me quit after a lifetime of drinking.
I was at the same point you are when I quit. It was stealing my soul - there was no fun or happiness in it anymore, only misery. There's nothing to cling to - it's over for us - and we don't need it in our lives. You can do it, Eve. I hope it helps to be here to talk it over.