I agree that your are in a tight spot. However, YOU need to do what you need to do to protect your recovery if that is what you want for yourself. What are you doing for support in addition to us wonderful people here on SR? You do need to review an exit plan. Sounds like you have some dreams of setting up your own business. I hope you can find some peace and serenity in your life. Being clean and sober has given me that. I have learned to place a lot of necessary distance from people in my life that make me insane. I have a relationship but I have my own place and I plan on keeping it that way. Get yourself some breathing room.