Yea it sucks to got thru the week with only $20 after spending it on alcohol and strippers. I'm actually talking to one and I'm starting to see that there is no love. Maybe thats why I feel so down. I'm always in pursuit of the wrong things. Last night I actually prayed and hoped thing will turn out better. I guess I have to put my part. How can I increase my faith? What can I do to stay sober when I'm In love with the night life. I'm only 27 but I fear for my future. I have pain in my heart, I'm feel emotionless. Is there someone out there for me? I'm tired of being lonely and drinking alone blasting music in a small room. I don't want to keep doing this. Life is not fun for me no more. Its just work to pay bills late and spend it at a club talking to dancer who front like they like me but probably don't care.
Uhhh. I'm tired of this cycle.