Yes, same here. I also struggle with social anxiety, and I'm pretty reserved when I'm sober. When I drink, I verbalize what I only think when I'm sober, so I am a fun person even when I'm sober... I just keep it to myself out of fear, of judgement, or just fear in general. I lose inhibitions and the fear when I'm drunk, so I guess I need to work on how to do that when I'm sober once I finally quit.