Hi all,
I started my step 5 with my sponsor yesterday; we spent about 4 & 1/2 hours doing so, got through my major resentments, gained perspective and quite a bit of clarity, etc. Felt extremely peaceful and like quite a weight had been lifted
However, I woke up this morning and felt extremely strange; almost like I was dying! I knew nothing was wrong with me physically, reassured myself I was OK and managed to get a little more sleep before work. Moved back to feeling peaceful, then on the way back from work, it started again
Now, there's an immense sense of fear attached to that. I'm getting to a meeting tonight and waiting to hear back from my sponsor-it's *really* unsettling and I can feel the anxiety kicking in!
The logical part of my head tells me part of me *is* dying; the resentments I held onto for so long, much of my "old self". My sponsor has told me numerous times that she felt like she had been reborn after completing step 5, so this whole process possibly makes a little sense (again, logically!). Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? My two housemates have both gone through steps 4 & 5 and I got a bit of an "eh?" response. I need to know i'm not alone!
Xx