Struggling today to keep a positive attitude; crazy because it is wonderful weather but I am alone today. I know the best thing for me to do is to get out and do something. I am going to move my deck furniture out and go buy flowers and patio "stuff". It was easier in some ways when I was an unmotivated drunk. I always did the same thing; I went to the local bar and hung out and drank my day away. Now that I'm sober I find it takes more energy as some type of decisions need to be made about what to do. At least the payoff is always better!