I took a "life unmanageability questionnaire" found in some old NA materials. Of 40 questions I had 9 negative (unmanageable) answers and 31 positive (manageable) answers. When I took this same quiz 7 years ago, I answered over half of 40 as unmanageable. At least I am clearly in the right direction. Most of the negative answers were a direct result and only applicable to my relationship. Being with the wrong person is certainly unmanageable. So I am still not sure my occasional using meets the first step criteria as unmanageable, but I certainly could potentially healthier and happier without it.