Hi, Redhead. Welcome to SR!
Don't be nervous about posting - it's the most welcoming and supportive place I've come across by far) You'll get a lot of help, and no one will judge you.
I hear you - I have pretty nasty situation with my relatives, and I'm living on my own. When I quitted I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to deal with all the pain and memories, and other issues without wine. But it was just fears, actually the only way to deal with all this is being sober.
Early sobriety may be quite hard to go through - but it's quite doable. Focus on one day, one hour. Do whatever it takes - stare at walls, climb the walls, eat, sleep, post and read here (helps a lot!), but do not turn to bottle. There's no magic pill against it.
But it is getting better. It is really getting better. And sober life is much better.
Best wishes to you. Stay strong, keep posting.