Dana,
You are not alone..things do get better. when i quit using speed I had to isolate myself from almost everyone i had associated with. luckily I had a few people that understood and gave me the chance i needed. Once I came out of hibernation I feared I would not have the self control to say no. But when the first person I knew offered me a line I said " NO ! " ( like that, real loud ) i know its silly but thats how I said it.
What a cliche: just say NO!
You Can DO IT. I know because you want to change. You have found a goldmine of love and support here...
cindy