Just wanted to introduce myself with my story.
I don't know how my story will be received and I am not sure why I want to tell it possibly some type of closure for me I am just not sure. 13 years ago I met the love of my life. We were both in college and I knew when I met her she was my soul mate. I had never in my life seen anything more clearly. In thirteen years we have both had success in our careers and built a loving home for my daughters. My oldest daughter is now married to a wonderful man and we have 3 beautiful grandchildren. We were there when the first two were born and have been so blessed by watching them grow. My youngest daughter is in her third year of college and doing wonderful. We have a wonderful life with a wonderful family and so many things to be thankful for.
The first 11 years we hardly ever had cross words and I mean ever!! It is hard to believe but so true. She went through a drinking stage early on but nothing to bothersome. I also knew her childhood was not great but she seemed to cope very well.
About 2 1/2 years ago our oldest daughter moved to another state with her husband and the bottom feel out of life as I knew it. I knew she was struggling with the kids being gone so I encouraged her to she a professional about how to deal with them being gone and also may be to deal with some things from her childhood.
Therapy did go well. I am not sure why. About that time synthetic marijuana came on to the market and she tried it. It has been down hill ever since. She stopped for about 8 months but is now back on it. I cannot believe how much it has changed the person she is. It is like living with a stranger. I have read a lot about addiction and I understand all the support and love I can give her won't change the fact that she is an addict.
In January she over dosed in anxiety meds and came very close to dying. It was the hardest thing I had ever been through. To watch someone you love lay in a hospital bed unconscious while they try to rid her body of all the toxins. It was very traumatic. I thought surely this would be her rock bottom but sadly I was wrong.
I have made the choice to move on with my life. I have told her I wish her all the happiness in the world but it is best for both of us to move on. She can either get help or live her life as an addict. For the health of myself my girls and grandchildren and family in general it is just time to end our relationship.
My family has given her all the love and support we can possibly give her but the fact is we can't make her want to change. We cannot fight for her when she does not fight for herself.
I have never dealt with addiction in my life and now that I am I see that my story is not so different and many people deal with this for many years.
I am fortunate that I have a very supportive family and I also know that God has a plan for me and will see me through this.
As I read through the many articles and post on this sight I gain more insight into my situation and I am so thankful I found it.
I am thankful I found a place I can tell my story where people understand what I am going through. I hope to be able to use this sight as my journey continues for information and support.