Originally Posted by
lesliej 
Insanity is contagious, especially when witnessed in the most intimate ways.
Sanity can return...but only after A LOT of work in recovery...on both your parts.
Tend to the sanity of your child, keep him from contagion.
Thank you for your powerful words of advice.... funnily enough I am not lonely - I am surrounded by incredible family and good friends.... just such a powerful emotion for somebody I have loved for so many years.... I suppose its tough too as I knew him before the addiction wrapped its gnarled fingers around H's soul and ripped it out - along with all of us on the way..... I want to badly to believe H will return to us.... in the way he was before. I see moments of him. Maybe he is putting on a show for me now - but I see him again - I see hope. But I know the odds are stacked so against us.
I am feeling vulnerable and exposed. I need to 'batton down the hatches'.... get a grip. Find my inner peace again.....
Thank you