Im in pain too....i wasnt married though so i can only imagine your situation but i thought eventually my xabf was going to be *the one* i marry later on. hes also a heroin addict unfortunately and lied to me our whole relationSH*T.......but would look me in my eyes and tell me im the love of his life, future wife, how he wants my babies, yadda yadda.....and me being naive fell for it. a year later my heart is on the ground shattered into a million pieces. he used me, cause i was a decent girl with morals....something to show off to his parents...to be like "hey i gotta be recovering look at this nice girl im dating" to keep him off his parents *radar*.......
then he ended up breaking up with about a month ago now......telling me he needs to "recover" but its bullsh*t because two days later hes posting pics on facebook of him doped up at bars with *new* friends.....sooooo coool!!! more like soooo sad.
he picked a bag of dope and new cool friends over me.
*shake my head*.......im WORTH more then a bag of dope....and so are YOU.
hugs xo