That day, I finally gave in about the hydros though...he said he just needed to get it out of his system and in return for me trusting him he would try extra hard to be nice and not let the drug make him act like a jerk toward me. I have been wanting some more positive attention from him, so he got me there. I wouldn't say he followed through like expected, but he wasn't mean for the most part, and I was relieved about that.
Sometimes when you're in the middle of the chaos you lose sight of exactly how crazy things have become. Take a minute and read this piece over again. Does this sound like a good relationship to you? Is this what you want?