Ugh y'all are great. Heck yea we would find our way off the island haha. The truth is I have been trying to quit for a couple years with little spurts of sobriety. I am an intern getting my hours for my CAC. I want to be a reentry counselor for inmates who went away a addicts. I guess I just want my cake and eat it too. But my body just can't handle it anymore. What a hypocrite!!!! I know how to stay sober but still don't want to accept it. I have a prescription for vivitrol waiting for me at walgreens. I just haven't brought myself to pick it up. Maybe I should start there. Love y'all thank u