Sober two weeks and a day. Cannot get out of bed for longer than an hour. I have to finish a paper by nine in the morning. I cannot think or calm my self down. All I want is someone to talk to but I have no friends and I don't know why. I hate school I don't know why I came back and why I feel so horrible. I didn't drink everyday I binged on Friday or Saturday. Never kept it in my place. It feels like I cannot wake up. I just don't give a da$&. Guess I will try to write but I freak out and think about horrible my life is. No one speaks to me or is nice to me. I don't want to be inside this brain anymore. Sigh. I don't think I am built to last.
