Welcome back T2F..glad you're still trying to quit, that's a good thing. I didn't go to AA..I read lots of books, checked in here a LOT, changed some of my habits and social situations, tried journaling, tried a therapist, told some friends for some accountability, and just took it a day at a time. It does get easier. You can also check to see if there's a SMART meeting in your area and research Rational Recovery. You can do it!! It's not easy, but it's worth it.