Thanks Mizzuno. I was hoping I wouldn't need to join a face to face group but I think you may be right. I have good support from my sister and mother but of course it is a hard subject to talk about to people who love you. I feel like I'm moaning and feeling sorry for myself. I need to remember how I felt this morning every time I even think of having a drink. I also associate drink with happy events with friends and family when really it is those events and the people who I'm with that are enjoyable and not the drink I've consumed.