Day 2
Well it's day 2 not talking to my husband no calls nothing !! I know he is using and he wants me to think I'm crazy and wrong but I know the truth I heard the messages from his friend about waiting for him to get his dope !! I
Know I will never hear from him and if he does call it would be something stupid or hurtful .. I just wonder if he ever loved me ? I guess I will never know .. There are so many emotions I feel angry, hurt , I cry then I want to scream I'm all over in my head I just keep talking to god to help me .. I know there will be no
Happy ending here but I guess part of me has a little hope don't know if that is good or not ? Don't know what god has planned but I know it's not for me to be with someone on dope !! Just need to hear from people to give me some hope that one day I will wake up and won't care about him anymore well I shouldn't say that because I beleive part of me will always care to some point but when I wake up he is not the first thing I think of !!