Hello and welcome to SR! I think u r a lot stronger than u think u r. I also, thought I could never quit on my own, I was so misirable. I finally quit cold turkey and have been clean for over 6 weeks now. I feel great!!!! The first cpl of weeks r going to really suck, but u r going to have to take it day by day, and when it really sux- hour by hour. Remember u r not doing this alone, we r here with u going thru the same thing and u will get a lot of support on SR!!! Set the date and jump to get ur life back! Good luck!!!