i just joined too. its sad we have to come here, but whatever works. i believe we are all on different levels of solving/ coping with this problem. it scares me to read some of the stories posted on this site- i dont feel i've fallen that far- but i know if i go any deeper its where i certainly will be.
it really bugs me because i really like the way alcohol makes me feel. but i dont when to stop.
lets try stay in this together.