Originally Posted by
hydrogirl 
Sadly, you never will understand why. I'm afraid there is no 'why' with addiction.
I'm really sorry that you are hurting.
I have to agree with hydrogirl here. There is no "good" reason. One thing I have learned though my experiences is that you cannot expect truth in words or logic in actions from an actively drinking A. I'm also really sorry you're hurting. Sending you hugs.
