I dont care
I just have decided to say screw it.
my bf may or may not have relapsed. Im going to assume he has.
He also has put himself on what are called colors. It is random drug testing through the state. I have decided Im going to pretend he isn't an addict at all. Hear me out ok?
If he stands me up. That's not ok.
If he steals from me, that's not ok.
etc. so on and soforth.
He will not be able to cheat the colors forever. In he event that he is using, he will make a mistake eventually.
only time will tell and quite frankly... I just don't care anymore.