Thank you Reedling, for your response.
I've often wondered if I would be allowed to go to Alnon, and now I will. As I said, I love my husband very much and I know he wishes sometimes he could be different. After I get upset with him and we make up he will say half jokingly "you know I'm messed up".
But thanks so much for your reply again,it almost made me cry, sometimes I feel like no one understands, and I don't really tell people, out of respect for my husband, so everyone thinks we are this perfect couple.
I will look for Alnon in my area..