Dreams,
I can't wait to take my girls on the cruise! They are very excited and I am looking forward to 8 uninterrupted days with them! I have been going to counseling, reading, posting. I felt like I had come so far and my biggest fear...being sucked back in, came to pass this weekend and I survived. I looked at the situation and didn't just do what I've always done. I now recognize that anxious feeling isn't excitement or love, but my fight or flight reflex kicking in. My subconscious trying to warn me of danger.