I lurked here forever. I still do lol.
I remember reading this forum drunk. That was not fun.
I had tons of day ones. Of course nobody knew I dreamt of quitting but me.
Now I realize I was toying with the idea till I got up the courage to really quit for good.
It took a few attempts but I feel solidly into recovery this time.
It is not always easy but it is definitely worth it.
Just keep on this site and develop a sobriety tool kit.