Yes, that's exactly it. I thought I could have one to take the edge off. I thought I deserved it because part of getting sober was to make the wife happy. And now we're divorced and she's taking the kids. Well to heck with her, I can have one. I'm not a kid anymore.
If I had been paying attention to everything I had learned in AA then it would not have been a problem. If I had only remembered "the first drink gets you drunk" I would not have taken it.
It gets a LOT easier, especially if you're paying attention and working your program.