I was 6 months sober and felt like you did every time I was around people drinking. I hated going to places where people were drinking around me. And then I convinced myself I could have a drink, I probably wasn't even an alcoholic I said to myself. And then I picked up. 3 years down the line and I am back where I was when I did my detox. I hate this and can't stand myself, please don't go back to this ****. What makes things worse is I'm going to have to let everyone who loves me down again by admitting what I am.