Maybe you should look at the positives from this. You were out and surrounded by alcohol and didn't drink. Alcohol is so addictive for me I could not possibly do what you did and abstain at this stage of my life. It's not easy to kick any habit and if it was easy it wouldn't be a problem in our lives. I think you should be very pleased with yourself for being so strong. I hope that I can have the will power you have shown in the future your an inspiration to someone who is trying to stop drinking.