Hi nimeton
don't worry about how much you dank, or not...to me alcoholism is not about how much or how often, it's about what happens to us when we do.
I loved drinking too - I really loved it from the first glass - it was more than something I did...it was my way of life.
Unfortunately I grew to hate it, it began to consume me, and by then I couldn't stop.
To move on from that I had to change a lot of things - much more than simply drinking.
Getting sober didn't make me happy - it just makes it a little easier for me to work out what I need to do to be happy.
What other things have you changed in your life since you got sober?
D