Welcome, it's good to see someone getting honest with THEMSELF. Usually people are dishonest about their drinking, I know from first hand experience! I got my help by way of AA and heard a lot that I disagreed with as being honest with myself was not my strong suit. I just had ONE, ya most of 1 bottle. I found out a lot about myself and the demon within me that said I didn't have an alcohol problem, just my wife had become un manageable, chuckle now but back then I believed it totally. Years later it's good to remember when. BE WELL