Alcoholism is a progressive disease, the A gets worse over time. You have already seen that in your partner. His behaviors have become worse, even dangerous to others if he's now driving drunk. If you're feeling you can't live like this, how will you live with it as it gets worse? We can love our A's with all our hearts, it does no good because their first love is alcohol...always. So we have to remember to love ourselves first and foremost. We can't change their behavior, but we can change how we react to it. I"m glad you're going to seek professional help. This disease makes us sick as well, you already feel you're a different person. So get help for yourself, go to AlAnon and find support. Take care of YOU