Goose, some of the feelings you are having are a result of being at 2 months sober. I am at 10 months and feel so much more emotionally stable than I was at 2 months. My anxiety, depression, state of mind are so much better now. Keep on the course and hopefully the good days will far outweigh the bad ones. Plus, at 54 you are in no way old. Do you exercise? That was a tremendous help for my anxiety, depression when I quit.