Jane, this disease can drive us to feel like we are insane - yet really we are the sane ones. Ask yourself some questions...
Would it be insane for you to go back home right now while he is acting so horribly? Would it be safe?
You said you would not go back home until at least Tuesday after you met with the counselor, is there a reason you should not stick to that plan?
I hope you can find some peace in your decision to not go back... it seems like that may be best for you and your safety.
I don't know much about abuse, but I did have an opportunity to speak to the Victim's assistant at the local courthouse about 7 weeks ago, and they explained that abuse is very similar to alcholism, it is progressive, (gets worse if untreated). And there is also the "honeymoon" phase, where they are very sorry for their actions, we forgive, spend the next several months earning their trust again, and then the cycle starts all over again.
I will pray for you to be at peace with the decision you make.
Sorry you are having to go through this.
Last edited by wraybear; 12-12-2004 at 06:49 PM.