Originally Posted by
Goat 
You're right mmhoule, we can't have one. There's no point in being mad about it.
Dee told me early on to just accept that drinking is not an option for me and that advice changed my life. Accepting that one fact stopped the arguing that was constantly going on in my head. Once I accepted that I just cannot drink, period, I was able to let go of the fantasy that I could that I could drink in moderation, or that it was ever even an option.
That said, I did slip after 2 months. I'm still not totally sure how since I wasn't intending on drinking that day when I left the house. I just let my guard down and I wasn't thinking. I suppose I was hoping that I could have a few, get a bit of a buzz, and all would be fine. Needless to say that did not happen. While I'm disappointed that I slipped I am in a much better place this time around since I am armed with the "take it off the table as an option" advice and my "experiment," if you will, was a disaster.
Not easy stuff, is it? I feel everyone's struggles.