Originally Posted by
Bluetiger 
I just blew the 6 months of sobriety I worked so hard for.
It sounds like you are beating yourself up plenty for having relapsed.
While you are doing that, please give yourself a little credit for being SIX MONTHS sober. That is a GREAT accomplishment and should tell you a lot about yourself and your ability to quit drinking!
And whatever your current or future status with regard to AA and sponsorship, you can also rely on these forums for help staying sober. Don't forget that.