I was under the impression that she dropped me. Step three says a power greater than ourselves ... I believe in the rooms and the people in them .... I didn't think she was going to steer me wrong but she's caught up in a lot of gossip ... I found out last night that she is dating her old sponsee's ex ... The rooms for me are a safe place .... I just don't feel comfortable in them anymore .... My friend who is like a brother to me brought me into the program last year when I called him while detoxing .... I feel like I'm clinging to him like glue because I'm extremely uncomfortable ..... Last night I sat with the boys because the four girls including my sponsor sat together .... This was my home group .... I read the sponsor ship pamphlet .... I thought the purpose of aa was to help the next sick and suffering alcoholic or the new comer and here I am again embarrassed and humilated as I said I have three days back .... For the last year I keep trudging along