I hate this really low depressed feeling, the last two weeks I was on a high, life was good I started a new job, I was controling my drinking, we were all happy just getting on with life.
It's was not so much the feeling of drinking that pleased me it was the fact I was not spending all day everyday fighting the fact I could not have a drink. I was able to go about normal living and then have a few drinks in the evening with no dyer consequences.
Now with a bang I have brought myself back to reality, knowing I can't contunie living like that it was already getting out of hand drinking 13/21 days.
The last 3 days have been awful and to the point I don't want to go to work today. Not sure if it's the stress I will be on my own coping this week or what but I just want to go back to bed
