Originally Posted by
sugarbear1 
Have you talked to your doctor honestly about your using and drinking? You may need a medical detox for your safety.
I'm not addicted to the pills physically. I've put them down for weeks at a time before, it's just the mental aspect. It relaxes me, I'm able to talk, no anxiety. It's like a clearer version of me. Not that I'd know who I even am anymore, because I've been using and drinking for so long.