Others finding out
So now my husband is out of the house.
It has been 4 days.
It is a relief to just be in my own place of calm.
But now I am isolating from my friends bc I don't want to tell them what's going on.
I hadn't told them what was going on before and now that he's gone I still don't want to tell them.
This weekend is a wedding reception and he will not be coming with me.
Eventually people will find out he's not around.
I have not been lying for him or about him -- just saying he couldn't make it to whatever the thing was where I was and he wasn't.
The situation makes me uncomfortable - and reminds me of trying to protect my dad when he was inappropriate with me as a kid. So I'm being that much more triggered and probably irrational.
I feel a sense of responsibility an loyalty to my husband to protect his anonymity too.
Not saying it's the healthiest -- just saying that's where I'm at.
Gossip can spread fast in my community and I guess I'm trying to postpone it, but know it can't go like that much longer without me have to lie which also does not feel good.
Experiences? Strength? Hope?
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