hiya DGO,
just read your thread and wow, you're going, one day after the other.
makes perfect sense to me that you're at a loss as to how to cope with feelings, what to do with yourself, all that stuff...drinking was the way i ultimately took care of everything, even if it wasn't right that minute.i always knew eventually i'd drink, so therefore i knew i didn't really have to figure out how to just BE, y'know? yeah, you know
the best news is that you are now starting to FIND and BUILD ways to help yourself with those things, and are starting already to reap some pretty good noticeable benefits from quitting.
sounds, too, like you're aware of what's going on with you and taking steps to take good care of yourself.
the drink-offering bf is an extra challenge.
keep going. it's the only way to do it.
and you're doing it!